Dera Mascal Recalls Primal Anger After Cancer Diagnosis, Finds Release in Validation

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Many of us are taught to suppress negative emotions, especially during difficult times. This story reveals the unexpected power of allowing oneself to feel and express raw anger and grief.

Dera Mascal Recalls Primal Anger After Cancer Diagnosis, Finds Release in Validation

After receiving her cancer diagnosis, Dera Mascal initially tried to rationalize the news, viewing it as a catalyst for personal growth. However, her husband, Paul, encouraged her to acknowledge her true emotions, leading to a raw, primal outburst of anger involving screaming and throwing objects. This intense emotional release, which she rarely allows herself, ultimately provided a profound sense of catharsis and relief.

Now in remission and doing well, Mascal reflects on the extensive support she received, emphasizing that while she was undergoing treatment, her cancer journey also deeply impacted her children. She highlights the isolating nature of illness, where the individual experiences a unique, solitary path even amidst widespread love and care.

"It's all right to be angry. Oh my god. It felt so good. But you've got to you've got to you've got to deal with this now again. It's a [expletive] why the [expletive]? And it was I don't let myself do that ever. Ever. And it's primal. Yes. Comes from inside. Oh my god. It felt so good."

▶ Watch this segment — 43:10

Haircut Triggers Unexpected Grief for Dera Mascal, Leads to Deeper Self-Love Post-Cancer

Dera Mascal experienced a profound and unexpected wave of grief after cutting her hair, as her new look inadvertently triggered memories of her appearance during cancer treatment. This emotional response, which she processed with her therapist, revealed an unaddressed aspect of her cancer journey, despite her earlier belief that she had not grieved the illness itself.

Mascal now views cancer as a transformative "gift" that compelled her to halt, refocus, and cultivate a deep gratitude and love for her body. She recounts a pivotal moment where she saw her unfiltered self in a photograph, embracing her physical form without judgment or the lifelong internal battles over her appearance, finding immense joy and self-acceptance in this newfound perspective.

"I didn't grieve cancer. I still to this day… believe cancer was gifted to me, and I do see it like that, which I know sounds ridiculous, but it stopped me in my tracks. It made me refocus. It made me grateful for the body."

▶ Watch this segment — 47:24

A New Beginning Post-Cancer During Retirement, Uplifted by Strangers' 'Joys'

Dera Mascal’s cancer journey, which remarkably coincided with her retirement, became a literal and metaphorical new beginning. Following a stem cell transplant, her entire blood system was renewed, and new hair regrew, making her feel as though she was starting over from scratch. This period allowed her to "come home to herself," reflecting on her identity and purpose post-illness and post-career.

During her isolation for treatment, Mascal was deeply moved by strangers who sent her "joys" through direct messages—simple pictures of everyday beauty like laundry blowing in the wind or children jumping in puddles. These ordinary images, shared by people she would never meet, symbolized profound empathy and connection, reminding her of the beauty in the outside world she temporarily couldn't access.

"I could begin again. Literally hair gone, new hair is going to come back. And I was in stem cells, so my whole blood was being renewed. So I was literally starting again from my blood from scratch."

▶ Watch this segment — 51:18

Dera Mascal's Daughter Reads Heartfelt Passage from Her Book, Surprised by Charlie Mackesy Drawing

Nell Mascal, Dera's daughter, delivered an emotionally resonant reading from her mother's book, 'Finding Joy,' choosing her favorite passage titled 'The Kiss.' The excerpt expresses deep appreciation for the profound love her father, Paul, shows their children, highlighting how this love helps them navigate the world. Dera, visibly moved, explained that the passage was inspired by a moment when Paul searched for Nell in a crowd, embodying that unconditional love.

Adding to the emotional moment, Dera received a surprise drawing from Oscar-winning illustrator Charlie Mackesy, whose work she admires. This unexpected gesture of recognition, coupled with her daughter's heartfelt tribute, underscored the impact of her shared story and the widespread connection it has fostered.

"The love you have for each of our children is all I ever wanted for them. To feel that kind of love, I believe, helps you love, helps you navigate the world, and all the loves they will have in it."

▶ Watch this segment — 1:10:00

A Honest Approach to Telling Children About Cancer Diagnosis

Dera Mascal candidly recounted the challenging experience of informing her children about her cancer diagnosis via a family video call, emphasizing the importance of unwavering honesty. She noted the difficulty of breaking such news without having all the answers about her forthcoming journey, which she knew would be "full on." Despite this uncertainty, she committed to transparency to avoid any sense of concealment within their family dynamic.

Mascal described trying to soften the blow by initially referring to it as a "good cancer," a descriptor her children quickly challenged. She also recalled their reactions, as they momentarily went off-screen during the call, hurting in silence while she simultaneously tried to minimize her pain to protect them—a profound struggle for any parent facing a serious illness.

"I'm going to tell you exactly what's happening so that we're not you're not getting hedged. You think you're thinking I'm not telling you the whole story because that's not how we as a family work."

▶ Watch this segment — 39:01

Dera Mascal Advocates Self-Love as Core Gift, Finds Power in Saying 'No' in Her 50s

Dera Mascal passionately advocates for self-love, describing it as the greatest gift one can give to oneself and, by extension, to one's children. She believes embracing self-love allows individuals to accept their unique quirks and fosters openness to receiving love from others, a crucial element often missing when people struggle with self-acceptance.

Reflecting on her journey into her 50s, Mascal shares a newfound wisdom and sense of liberation. She recounts moving past a phase of people-pleasing, where she often said "yes" to commitments she didn't genuinely desire. Now, she prioritizes her inner voice, confidently saying "no" to things that don't feel right, embracing an authentic path dictated by self-awareness rather than external validation.

"To love the bones of yourself is the biggest gift to yourself and… to gift that to your children, that that knobbly knee or that crooked ear or that you know whatever your gorgeous divine quirk is, that if you love it, it first of all makes life so much easier in every way."

▶ Watch this segment — 56:06

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